I feel like I've grown a lot over the past year. Actually, never mind the year, the past few months.
This year I've had my fair share of heartbreak and spent too many hours crying over boys who didn't even care enough to tell me they didn't want to see me anymore. During this time, many thoughts ran through my head, which I'm sure most people think when they've been hurt, but mainly all I could think was What is wrong with me?
Recently, I've came to the realisation that it says a lot more about them than it does about me. To be honest, I'm glad that this has happened to me. Okay, yes it completely sucked at the time and has taken me months to get over, but it's definitely made me a stronger person and for that I'm extremely grateful.
I used to be concerned about trying to find a boyfriend, I didn't want to be single while the rest of my friends were in relationships. At the moment though, I'm happy being single. I'm happy just being me. I'm having fun with my some of my best pals and I'm loving every minute of it! Yes, a boyfriend would be nice, but I've realised that it's not essential. I'm young, I have plenty of time and obviously now is just not the right time for a relationship. Who knows what could be in store for me in the future. To quote my wonderful mother:
"Whatever's for me won't pass me."
I'm learning to love myself before anyone else right now and I think that's incredibly important for me to grow even more as a person.
Is this what turning 20 does to a person?? I feel like I've matured so much since hitting the big 2-0!hahah
Sarah-Michelle x
